&let go.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

continue-ing from previous post...

Maggi feel like going to her closefriend, nugget and hotdog and hug them. tell how stress and scared she is in this condition. but she cant. Noodle was too close with her. if she just make 1 cm. move, just one cm... something like kissing will happen. and she dont want that to happen. again, for the second time, she cry because of scared.. scared of her own bestfriend did something bad to her. her bestfriend, Noodle. that always make her happy when she was crying. But now, she cry because of him. she feel like as if she was the cry baby. but she cant take it! her tears is the same as her fear. Noodle saw a drop of water come out from her eye.. her beautiful eye. the eyes that make him want to look at it everyday. the eye that make him hyper. the eye that make him feel like missing someone everyday. He let go off maggi.

He let go off maggi. "sorry" the only word he can say...
maggi open her eye..

" come on noodle.. i dont think you love me. i know you love macaroni very much. the girl you waited for 1 month or more?. but was rejected recently. i know how you feel. you can share with me, your problem. i will be by your side, as a friend. bestfriend.."

Noodle cant take it. he scream as loud as possible. Maggi was shocked. half of their member came-fishball, fishcake, hotdog, nugget...

"whats happening??" asked 4 of them in one shot..

"sorry" the only word he can say...

Hotdog and Nugget went to get Maggi who looks really scared. Maggi still standing there like a statue. her mind was blank, totally blank. She dont know, why the hell, her life being like this? did she make a mistake by liking him? maybe, but she cant help it. the feelings come by itself. no one can neither stop nor start it.

Noodle look at Maggi. With frustration-expression but disappointed in the heart. Why cant Maggi just gave him a chance. just one more chance. he would be the happiest guy but sadfully, Maggi dont want to. Maggi was going to open her mouth and say that she will give Noodle 1 more chance to show how much she loves her. but when she was about to open her mouth.

"ok, if this what you want Maggi, I will take you as my bestfriend then." said Noodle, " but remember, if one day i bring a girl with us, dont show me your bloody sad or angry face."
Maggi felt like there was a big stone hitting her in the heart, she stare at Noodle. She dont know how she felt now, happy? sad? nothing? she just dont know what to say.
Noodle went away from there.

"mag, are you ok?" asked fishcake and fishball..
maggi nodded...
" are you happy?" asked nugget.
"haha, of course im ok with it. i take him as a bestfriend fullstop. get it? not more" lied Maggi
"hope you not lying. ok lets go home." Hotdog hold Maggi's shoulder as if she can give her strength by that.

so the 5 of them went back together. Noodle looks again at Maggi when he want to take his bag. his heart really ache, its really hurt. Maggi never even glance at him. he was waiting for her eye to at least look at him even for a second. but it was wasting time. he went off from there.
when he turn his back, Maggi turn her head. She look at Noodle with sad-expression. she wont tell anyone that she still like Noodle. that was a promise. She will only tell if its really needed.
BOTH of them, felt sad. BOTH of their heart hurt but dont want to tell anyone about it. BOTH of the feel like crying. they protect their ego too much. and so it be.

what we could have been, 3:39 AM.