rockers

2011-12-03T21:53:00.000-08:00

Teacher NON-MUSLIM asked the students MUSLIM

Teacher: Can you see Allah?
Class: No
Teacher Can you touch Allah?...
Class: No
Teacher: Then there isn't Allah!

*Student raises their hand and says*

Student: Sir, can you see your brain?
Teacher: No.
Student: Can you touch your brain?
Teacher: No.
Student: Oh okay, so you don't have a brain?

I Love this story :D.... totally in love with it.

2011-11-27T02:09:00.000-08:00

2011-11-26T02:21:00.000-08:00

It does hurt, but who cares ? haaa! its like seriously. It happens everytime, every-single-time, im freaking used to it :D Maybe its just my fate. however, being a beast is not really a bad thing ! you are able to experience a real life, able to learn why-cant-i-get-this feeling and it wont affect you that much as you used to it. and again, this is life. people always said, Dont Give Up Easily. and the opponent will said, It's Easier To Say Than Done. right? and you need both of it. some things you cant give up. but some, you simply need to let it go, give it up. Cause you know that you're losing hope.

looking myself in the mirror, *sigh*, and said ziana...ziana.... :)

2011-11-26T01:55:00.000-08:00

Ziana, saengil chuka hei !
its not even my birthday but i feel like saying it to myself. ha

anyway, tahun baru Islam semakin hampir. Maka itu, aku ingin berdoa supaya aku dapat markah yang cemerlang untuk GCE O. Markah yang boleh membanggakan kedua orang tuaku dan markah yang boleh dibanggakan oleh mereka. Ya Allah, mudah-mudahan aku dapatlah markah yang sempurna. selain itu, ya Allah, bukalah pintu hatiku ini supaya aku dapat mendekati diriku kepadaMu dengan lebih ikhlas. Jadikanlah aku seorang yang beriman, anak yang solehah dan juga seseorang hamba yang baik. Ampunilah dosa dosa kedua orang tuaku, abangku, aku dan juga umat umat Islam yang lain. terimalah keampunan kami. Terimalah kami di pintu SyurgaMu, Ya Allah.
amin yarabilalamin.

2011-11-24T01:09:00.000-08:00

BYE - BYE !

2011-11-05T06:28:00.000-07:00

why the hell i got guy face?! but,

Thanks Allah for such a complete face, with nose, eyes, mouth, ears. thank you :)

well, tomorrow is hari raya Haji. Since nenek lived with us, we need to do all the cooking because relatives will be coming aik~! cut the onions, cut cut cut everything. stir sambal goreng stir stir stir everything. wash the dishes, wash wash wash everything and DONE. Online for while~ around 7, after prayed maghrib, start to mop the floor, mop mop mop everywhere. (no wonder my hand super duper damn dry today) and now, back to online~!

anyways,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI SEMUA UMAT ISLAM !

2011-11-03T22:07:00.000-07:00

look there, look here. wait there, wait here. play there, play here.

When it took the chocolate from my hand, unexpectedly.

when he said, "abeh satu je?"

when he was right infront of me with his friend but never even glance at me

seriously, it was really enough for me to be happy :D

for a guy as handsome as that, even if he never look at me but near me, its like...

im standing next to a superstar. haaa!

whatta shit?! Zia, forget about it.

like seriously Zia, he's malay! wake up la ! you dont go for malay right?! what is wrong with you?!

plus, if you like someone typical, its should be okay la.. but this is like.... someone with a higher, i mean, waaaay higher rank than you. his hotness, his cuteness and his kekek-ness. haa! dear ziana, go on diet first then you can start about liking a guy. as for now, with your size, better stop thinking about it eh?! bleh :P

eeeh! why I sound like i have no confidence?! whatta shit?! its okay, once in while, nothing wrong. damn, i feel like i am a crazy person here. talking by myself, post something at blog without anyone reading it. ha, gosh.. i love this blog.

2011-11-03T01:26:00.000-07:00

i know Im not as pretty as other girls, but who cares?! i love myself. girls, you seriously need to have self-confidence. not over confident though. do whatever you like, do everything that will make your day go wheee~!

well, I always heard about girls being hurt by guys and the other way round. but chill! think of the bright side. You've got to experienced all that. haha :)

When Im 17, my thinking about this world have changed. I used to think that everyone here were nice. But i guess some of the dramas seems to be true. people being hurt mentally or physically. people were betrayed. wow, thats sucks. but thats the reality.

i still got a loooong way to meet my mid age. or, i wont even get there and Allah take me back? well, its only Him who knows it.

2011-11-03T01:21:00.000-07:00

HEYLO~! blogger.
yes ah~! finished my O level soon. very very soon. simply wait for the result then :D

woah?! abang~! dah nak pergi NS ke ?! haha.. all the best to you.

2011-08-06T06:54:00.000-07:00

2011-06-01T22:17:00.000-07:00

sec 3 pic~!

YES ! I've forgotten him~! as in, He's no more than just a friendto me, now... awesome eh?!
wooohoooo~!

dear O level,
please brighten my future by giving me a good result :D

2011-06-01T06:02:00.000-07:00

2011-05-07T21:36:00.000-07:00

SINGAPORE !

If I got a chance to vote, I will vote for PAP. Its not that i agreed with whatever they said but it is because that they experienced more. they are the one who make Singapore successful, clean-and-green and many more. HOWEVER! Sometimes PAP also cross the line. they increase the cost of almost everything. House bill, daily stuff and alot more due to economy. But not every Singaporean is affordable. So, there's a negative and positive view ~! i've got to admit it. :)

2011-04-21T06:01:00.000-07:00

THIS IS WHAT I REPLIED TO HER

waaaaaah MISS LIEW! You Touched me leh! haha.. im gonna blog this message and proudly spread to the other choir members.. and ya! we will surely miss you too! thanks to you. we know teamwork. and thanks to you, we started to arrange our shoe in straight line without people asking us to do :) thanks cher !:)

AND THIS IS WHAT SHE SAID

Hahah! One more thing! You girls can stretch much muCH MUCH better than I first came! I am evil whahahahaha! Again, if we have more time... Yes please go ahead spread to the members.

Bedok town sec sch choir must move on! Bronze? NO MORE!

COP? Don't even know what it that!

P/S: I steal my friend's idea of the shoes thingi.. Heehee

2011-04-21T03:50:00.000-07:00

MESSAGE FROM MISS LIEW :)

Hello Ziana!

You know what, I think you girls sung beautifully on the competition day. We were just bad luck. SCGS sang too well before the break and the juries changed their taste bud. There were 5 choirs (including us) singing in the 2nd half of the afternoon and 4 in a row got bronze and only last choir got silver. So basically the whole section failed badly.

I was moved by you girls. from first day I heard you all singing with dunno what kind voice and cant sing your own part properly till recently you girls absorb things that we gave like a sponge. Within 3 months you all grown soooo much! All the scolding were just to push you girls further because i know you all can make it. I was thinking if we started the training much earlier say last year at least before September, gold is really not a problem. You all are a lot more musical than a lot of choirs.

I was really upset with the result, I kept asking myself why why ad why. but this is competition and we can't change anything. Most importantly you all should have learnt a lot not just the songs but the attitude towards things like team work and target. I always tell my friend that my bedok town girls are really fighters!

Proudly. I hope that this is not the end of the choir. this thing must go on till this choir can get gold with honor. For friends really love singing who are also last chance participate in syf, should continue singing also. find a choir and JOIN! Like me, I happily singing also :)

It is kind of weird that today is Thursday and I am not at bedok town sec school. Started to miss you girls already.

2011-03-08T01:08:00.000-08:00

hmmmmmm~

Its been years since i updated my bloody blog. mygawd! sec 5 lifes are so scary. my english sucks. my science always with my borderline result, my A and E maths a like waves up down up down. my MT can be improved. haish!

well, merged school is not that bad at all. everything goes smoothly. Although there's still some weirdos but who cares??

2011-02-03T00:32:00.000-08:00

AH!

2011-01-11T00:53:00.000-08:00

I WANNA BIKE !

2011-01-11T00:49:00.000-08:00

haish! why must I like him?? Of all people him... haha... but im grateful, he dont mind to continue the friendship although he knows my real feeling. thank you :) I hope you will be the Top student for O level. jia yo!

ohyeah! great! my brother's girlfriend get 10 point for her O level. WTF?! i love her brain. haa!

2011-01-11T00:48:00.000-08:00

Wish me luck for my O level this year :)
I hope i made it to poly with a course that I want...

ARGH! why can't I forget you? why must you seat alternate desk with me?! why why why?!

2011-01-11T00:46:00.000-08:00

2010-12-17T05:19:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum
Alhamdulillah :)
Insya-Allah, saya akan belajar lebih gigih di tahun hadapan and berjaya dengan cemerlang.

Peace upon you :)
woohooo May God Bless Us

I've passed my N level with a 16 point. maybe some of you may not be happy with that kind of point. But not for me :) I was bloody scared just now, seating at the hall is like waiting for a bad news. most of my classmates get their result. some made it while some dont. my heartbeat increased, my hand shivers, my leg although it was covered with socks and shoe but i still can feel the coldness. i was too scared and I even cried before getting the result. Sitting infront of my form teacher is like getting a full blast kick at my stomach and a double punch at my face. i cried again... waiting nervously what colour of slip will i received. is it green which is promoted? or pink which is retained.. and what i get was... GREEN! i will be promoted to sec five. thank god :) i receive that slip and jump towards my cousin, syakirah, and hug her. im released...

Next year 2011, I will try my very best to pass all the tests, exams, prelim and achieved my goal for O level. since bedok town secondary is merging with chai chee secondary, i will try to make myself comfortable with new environment :) I hope there is no fight between us, because soon we will be a one big family... in One building, one school's name with one motive which is gaining knowledge. we come to school for an Education not to fight and find fault :D hope there is a teamwork between us :)

2010-12-15T03:41:00.000-08:00

i dont know why.
whenever i think of it. i will start cursing them.. sorry but i had to say

I HATE IT. I HATE EVERYTHING ABOUT IT!

this is my first time saying that. i will never hate something that easily

2010-12-13T21:48:00.000-08:00

night cycling members :D

2010-12-12T05:23:00.000-08:00

2010-12-12T04:01:00.000-08:00

alhamdullilah, Night Cycling went smoothly.

oh great, it was my explendid experience because I just learn to ride a bicycle. First of all, i want to said sorry to everyone because I always break. SORRY! ohyeah, It was bloody tiring and I find myself very exhausted. imagine I cycle 32 km everyday, I bet i gonna slim down. haha. oheah, half way through of the journey I almost hit someone and fell. Almost eh... damn, im still not good at my turning. I wonder whose the unlucky person that i almost hit. I simply cant see him because it was dark and worst of all I never wear my spec. And usually I'm half blind at night. haha.. ohyeeaaah! before the night cycling event, i try out my dad's bike which and while riding it i fell down. at where? at traffic light nearby the roadside. it is so awesome! haaa, and the main point to hightlight, i fell down twice and i hurt my same hand.. my bloody SAME hand twice. great! bombastik. ohyeaaah! pardon my Singlish hor.. till here. saranghae :D muah!

2010-12-08T21:51:00.000-08:00

hmm Sungkyunkwan Scandal, Mary stayed out all night was an awesome drama.

ah gosh, seriously no school for a long period is very bored. i really mean it. :S

and Im out of idea what to post. Should i do some short "novel" here? let me think about it.

2010-12-04T05:00:00.000-08:00

ah, Im dead..

2010-11-17T23:37:00.000-08:00

ah his my HERO!

2010-11-14T04:57:00.000-08:00

I'm sick :(

need plenty of rest before Hari Raya Haji this Wednesday!

or else i look like Zombie..

2010-11-13T05:41:00.000-08:00

his name is Dijith

well, is he 100% singaporean or mix or what? just keep thinking :D

for me to know, for you to find out :)

he's awesome! talking to him is so much fun. Although he's older but guys mind are 10 years younger than their real age. hahaha!

hmm, what should i post about him?

haha, nevermind...

2010-11-13T05:36:00.000-08:00

oops, my blog dead again?

well, must feed it with more words! huahua!
oh yeah, apart from blog. my facebook is dead too. goodness!

well, im active on tagged now. :D see you there!

2010-11-08T00:22:00.000-08:00

hello everyone! i feel like updating my blog, so here i am.

oh yeah, i feel cool because my computer back to normal. BUT i feel crap too because all MY stuff GONE. my brother's head and my brother friend's head are equal. he repaired the computer and only save my brother's stuff, then mine?! haiyayay

i dont really mind actually, as long as i can play this computer of mine. huahuahua

i will not be in singapore from 21 nov-27 nov, following my cousin to Malaysia. wow, it going to be my first time following them. i hope everything went smoothly. i really wish that my uncle and aunt wont be in their bad mood state. I'm really scared of that.

hmm~ today i received form from my dad. what form?? to work! why last minute daddy?! im going malaysia! but i wish that i can start working in December. talking about december. I'm really scared of my N level result. i really want to go to sec 5. at least 18 point, at least 19 point. but please not more than 19.. pray for me guys. please pray together with me :D

ByeByeAll! TakeCareAll !LoveYouAll! MissYouAll!

2010-10-31T22:52:00.000-07:00

aaawwww! so cute.

2010-10-31T00:08:00.000-07:00

at first, i thought it was an easy job to forget you, to stop thinking of you.

but recently, my heart can burst anytime; i really miss you. I look at the phone, waiting for you smses eventhough i know you wont. i listen to those music that you have introduced to me. i started missing you more and more. . :'( I've tried my best to forget you by trying to think of any other guy; that are stranger to me... but its hopeless. its really useless.

2010-10-17T02:52:00.000-07:00

due to hot-oil. i was frying egg for my family members. well, it's hurt. but i guess my feeling here hurts more. haa! i was joking, mamamia.. i dont even have heartache~ lawl!

i cant lie to myself that i never miss smsing with the person there. of course i do! the jokes, the crapness, the lameness and advicing. i really miss those days but im just a human that cant change anything. It's fate and i deal with it peacefully.

anyway, syakirah! my dearest cousin muacks! and to those who are sitting for Os BEST OF LUCK! wish you all the best and never do your paper half way through and give up. never ever give up easily. wish me all the best too :D i really really want to be promoted to sec 5. please please please. may GOD bless us.

2010-10-15T00:55:00.000-07:00

ni anak ^^ haha.. i love her to the max.

14 october.... my sickening day.
well, just forget about it. maybe by doing that will be easier for me to forget about it. haaaa.!

goodbyeeee~ going to miss smsing with you

2010-10-12T21:34:00.000-07:00

stories, me, gayatri and esther (repost)

in the concert hall..
after the intermission.. gayatri change place with cherie coz she want to sit beside me.. bestfren mah..
then.. in the dark this was what happen.. with esther
gayatri:" eh ziana, look at the guy there, handsome right??"
ziana :" hmmm ya.. ok la.. cant even see how i know"
esther :" ya lorh"
gayatri:" haiz.. but so handsome"
when the light was on for intermission again.. HAHAHAHAHA! !gayatri point to me the guy when the guy look at the other side.. when the boy look at us
ziana:" GAYATRI!! ARE YOU SURE! HE'S HANDSOME?? HE'S SO NOT HANDSOME FOR ME! my taste better than you.. my 'mr july' more handsome!!"
gayatri:" OMG!! i thought he's handsome! from the side look damn handsome"
esther laugh like hell!!!then the guy change place he sit infront of us.. the concert start as per normal..we keep laughing non-stop and he keep look at us..
gayatri:" ziana, i think he look at you.. he like you i think"
esther :" ya lorh ya lorh.. or you want this guy"
she point to a guy who sit infront of me.. worst he looks like bapok...
ziana:" like shit la you all!! gayatri is the one who say he's handsome not me what!!"
both:"but he keep looking at you"
and we start laughing..the end of the concert.. as per normal bedok town like hooligan.. shout hell! in my mind i say.. ok la.. as long as the guy is not bapok..when we get up.. he also get up.. and
OMG HE'S VOICE WAS A GAY!! SERIOUSLY!!the way he walk also GAY! and he keep smiling!! rabak!!

2010-10-12T03:24:00.000-07:00

AF, is an arrogant guy that being hated with everyone except one person, AB. she loves him and only see the bright sight of him. One day, AB confess her feelings to him. However, he gives her a sarcastic smile and said, "everyone said you're cute but i guess they blind.just go away from me now. i dont want to see you infront of me." AB was hurt with what she had heard. she almost cry, almost. AF stand there and watch her walking away from him. The next few days, AF realized that AB have been ignoring him, not even a glace. he starting to regret for what he have said cause he, himself, loves her truthfully but his ego stops him.

one fine day, AB was on the way home at the bus stop, alone. "ehem ehem" AF sitting beside her. AB look at him for a second and stand up to get away from him. By any chance, AF pull AB's hand. her bag drop on the floor and she falls on AF laps. AB want to get up but AF stops her. "let me go! you've said im ugly and dont want me to be infront of you. so let me go!!" AB shout. Ignoring her words, AF hug her back tighter and said, "please... let me hug you. im sorry. the fact is, i never said you ugly before. everyone said you're cute, but to me you are beautiful lady. i dont want you to be infront of me because i want you to be everywhere around me and here... in my heart. i really loves you dear. i hate you. i hate you because my heart are filled with nice scent flowers that are planted by you. i love you" confess AF.
AB was shocked with what she heard. she just let him hug her. after a few minutes, begum stand up from AF's lap. she cried, tears of joy..
"sssshhhh~ dont cry. or else, i do something to you."
but AB simply cant stop crying. unexpectedly, AF pull her towards him and kiss her lips. both of them in silent. AF pull AB closer to him and hug her waist while AB hug around his neck. then, AF look into her eyes and said, "dont ever leave me dear"

2010-10-12T03:15:00.000-07:00

about : IN love SN

One typical day in the classroom, GT(girl) and SN(boy) were sitting next to each other and giggling. IN(girl) saw their expression and feel so gloomy for the whole day and she didnt talk nor joke around with anyone. the next day, morning assemly, SN sit behind IN. he kept asking her for maths formula but she didnt reply. on the way up to the classroom, SN pulled IN hands but she pull away and didnt even look back. after awhile, GT came and started talking with SN. IN felt like screaming but she just kept quiet. after class, SN was so impatient that he pulled IN all the way to the corer. SN's hand cupped IN's face and said "i'm sorry, but i love it when you're jealous for me being with GT. it proves that you really loves me." then SN kissed IN's cheek and they hug each other..

2010-08-21T05:44:00.000-07:00

wow.. i never update for two month already?!

anyway~ saranghae everyone!

2010-07-09T01:22:00.000-07:00

today was "be yourself day!" at school.

well, the day we can wear whatever we want to school. and I wore white T-shirt and jeans.

it was awesome seeing our friend wearing home clothes. PRETTINESS and HOTNESS were all seen. love it. muah! well, obviously the "secret guy" i like was the hottest to me. in my heart.

muahahaa~~ gosh just an admirer. I wont think more than that. i know who i am :)

GOOD LUCK to ALL BTS DANCE I IDOL.

if you failed, dont be too sad or angry. in every competition there will always be a loser and a winner. but remember, some losers effort is much better than a winner. people will usually look at the effort. so STAY STRONGIE!!

2010-06-16T05:00:00.000-07:00

i hate pimples. GAH..

baby baby baby oooh.

never hold your phone when you sleeping, or you will end up like me ^above pic^

accidentally press there press here.. taddaaaah. candid to yourself.

2010-06-16T04:56:00.000-07:00

This saturday someone from Malacca that i dont know will be sleeping at my house.

its not all of us dont know them but only my dad and grandma does.

wonder what will they look like. and they sleeping overnight here on saturday cause my cousin going to get married on sunday! woww.. father's day huh? anyway, wish them happy forever and after. haaaa..

2010-06-16T04:52:00.000-07:00

IM IN LOVE WITH MY BLOG! goossssh!

anyway, i havent started my homework.. what wrong with me?!
i thought i said i want to improve myself.. and this is what i had done?
from tomorrow onwards i will try to do all the revision eeeh..

gosh, better start now. or i will regret later. right? so yeeaaah! ziana hwaiting..

2010-05-27T03:39:00.001-07:00

DOT on you...

okay, get this in your head...

I HATE CRYSTAL..

cause why? i will break it everytime. not purposely but accidentally.

shit!

2010-05-27T03:39:00.000-07:00

gah.. when we are too close, there will Always be a problem.

this kind of stuff always happen to me. is it a bad luck for me?

i hate that person, but at the same time i miss that person.

i miss them till i dream about them.

but i know there is still hatred towards them.

i just try my best to think other things. my "now and always" friend.

with them, im still happy.

with them, i want to achieve higher grade for my studies.

with them, i can talk crap non-stop.

without them, i still have my family. but i will always miss and love them.

cause we are about the same age and have the same mindset.

thanks :D

2010-05-27T03:22:00.000-07:00

whats wrong with it?

recently my head is full of shahrukh khan. haa

dont know him? go and research about him..

he's a legend! bollywood.

and recently too, i just cant stop listening to hindi songs. ba..

2010-05-20T00:40:00.000-07:00

i dont get it...
its really frustrating
its really irritating
its really biased
its really lame..
and do you know what im talking about?
im talking about my favourite pillow.. *:P*

and yeah, friendship with same gender will be more awesome than friendship with different gender. but i dont get it when someone close to us dont take us as their close friend.. but i dont mind :D cause why? everyone have their own choice.. and we dont have right to stop them for being friend with someone else. and as a close friend, i will just wish them happy. and if they gets hurt, i cant bare with it.. but im not sure what should i do

2010-05-19T04:25:00.000-07:00

RESULTS ARE PATHETIC

2010-05-14T02:25:00.000-07:00

2010-05-14T02:05:00.000-07:00

this is super random pic i took at zoo

trying my best to stop thinking about strawberry but i cant..

damn it why is it so hard??

i feel like laughing at myself.. why? because at this young age, i say that kind of words.

it is really reaaallly pathetic. -.-

wish my grandma and my cousin recover soon.

oh yeah, before i forgot.

i want to say something to my dear friend syed

woi, chillx ya.. that kind of friend usually wont last long. they like to talk behind your back right? just ignore him.. thinking about him is useless. he wont feel anything even if you angry or sad for him.. so yeaaaaah~~ dina and nasir is way much better than abdullah.. no worries.. aku pun baik pe :P HAHAH

till here then take care

2010-05-07T04:37:00.000-07:00

it has been a long looong lonnnng.. okay stop
so how long i never update my profile? 2 month? 1 month?
heck care eeeh..

so exam starts on wednesday, the EL is shit!
mother tongue paper was okay but the compo questions was awesome! explendid!
social studies, no comment cause i never study at all (25 mark gone)
maths was speechless, i did almost all the question but not sure whether its right or wrong or careless.. yeah im a girl with full of carelessness.. sway.

i have 10 brain.. hahahaaa~ woww~ coolio.
anyway, should i continue liking strawberry or stop? GOSH!

2010-03-21T03:39:00.000-07:00

continue-ing from previous post...

Maggi feel like going to her closefriend, nugget and hotdog and hug them. tell how stress and scared she is in this condition. but she cant. Noodle was too close with her. if she just make 1 cm. move, just one cm... something like kissing will happen. and she dont want that to happen. again, for the second time, she cry because of scared.. scared of her own bestfriend did something bad to her. her bestfriend, Noodle. that always make her happy when she was crying. But now, she cry because of him. she feel like as if she was the cry baby. but she cant take it! her tears is the same as her fear. Noodle saw a drop of water come out from her eye.. her beautiful eye. the eyes that make him want to look at it everyday. the eye that make him hyper. the eye that make him feel like missing someone everyday. He let go off maggi.

He let go off maggi. "sorry" the only word he can say...
maggi open her eye..

" come on noodle.. i dont think you love me. i know you love macaroni very much. the girl you waited for 1 month or more?. but was rejected recently. i know how you feel. you can share with me, your problem. i will be by your side, as a friend. bestfriend.."

Noodle cant take it. he scream as loud as possible. Maggi was shocked. half of their member came-fishball, fishcake, hotdog, nugget...

"whats happening??" asked 4 of them in one shot..

"sorry" the only word he can say...

Hotdog and Nugget went to get Maggi who looks really scared. Maggi still standing there like a statue. her mind was blank, totally blank. She dont know, why the hell, her life being like this? did she make a mistake by liking him? maybe, but she cant help it. the feelings come by itself. no one can neither stop nor start it.

Noodle look at Maggi. With frustration-expression but disappointed in the heart. Why cant Maggi just gave him a chance. just one more chance. he would be the happiest guy but sadfully, Maggi dont want to. Maggi was going to open her mouth and say that she will give Noodle 1 more chance to show how much she loves her. but when she was about to open her mouth.

"ok, if this what you want Maggi, I will take you as my bestfriend then." said Noodle, " but remember, if one day i bring a girl with us, dont show me your bloody sad or angry face."
Maggi felt like there was a big stone hitting her in the heart, she stare at Noodle. She dont know how she felt now, happy? sad? nothing? she just dont know what to say.
Noodle went away from there.

"mag, are you ok?" asked fishcake and fishball..
maggi nodded...
" are you happy?" asked nugget.
"haha, of course im ok with it. i take him as a bestfriend fullstop. get it? not more" lied Maggi
"hope you not lying. ok lets go home." Hotdog hold Maggi's shoulder as if she can give her strength by that.

so the 5 of them went back together. Noodle looks again at Maggi when he want to take his bag. his heart really ache, its really hurt. Maggi never even glance at him. he was waiting for her eye to at least look at him even for a second. but it was wasting time. he went off from there.
when he turn his back, Maggi turn her head. She look at Noodle with sad-expression. she wont tell anyone that she still like Noodle. that was a promise. She will only tell if its really needed.
BOTH of them, felt sad. BOTH of their heart hurt but dont want to tell anyone about it. BOTH of the feel like crying. they protect their ego too much. and so it be.

2010-03-21T02:47:00.000-07:00

this was what happen.. :(
Maggi like Noodle... kind of a lot. But Mag take it this as a immature love. they are still young, in addition odle likes someone else. and yeah, at first Mag felt sad about it, but its not so bad right? but after 1 month waiting for the girl odle loved, he was rejected. One fine day, as per normal, maggi, noodle and their buddies were slacking under the void deck. Odle came to Mag and ask her to follow him to the blok infront. so yeah, Mag agreed. they were sitting next to each other, but Mag seat a meter away from Odle. Odle get irritated because when he try to seat right next to Mag, she will move a meter away again.

"Mag, why you keeping a distance away from me? Am I a monster? It wont harm sitting next to me"
Mag just kept quiet, she feel awkward, she had tried to forget about him and take him as a bestfriend and not more. it will only hurt her feeling if she kept thinking about liking him.
"eeer.. hehe.. sorry. why do you need me to come here? is there anything you need help? or you want to share secret with me and release your stress out?"
"Do you think i will always find you to only talk about my problem?"
again, Mag kept quiet. she's speechless. she dont know what to talk.
" i still remember the day we chat together with the rest and they asked whether you like me as a friend or more. you said you like me more as what we are now. do you really mean it?"
"eeerrr.. why are you asking me this? lets talk about different thing. like ap..."
Odle knows Mag trying to change the topic. But he dont want to...
"Im asking you a question mag."
Mag feel like fainting. she dont know. why the hell, he asking her that question. she feel like running away from him. she felt like HELL! Mag nodded her head, yup.. she likes him dearly.
"what if i like you, would you be my girl?" Mag was shocked.
"i ask you this Odle. do you ask me for stead because of sympathy or love??"
silenceeeee~
"you were waiting for her answer. you waited more than a month but she rejected you recently. and now you come to me and asking this question? do you think Im a doll that you can take anytime you want?? "
"NO! DONT SAY THAT KIND OF STUFF!" Odle shouted.
He dont know what to say. but the fact is, he really loves Maggi.
"why cant I? If she accepted you. Will you break with her up? and appear to me and ask me to be your girl?" Odle kept quiet and Mag felt like she's being treated like a doll.
"and thats the answer? no? right? so lets just be friend" mag was trying to get away from Odle.. while she's walking away from him without turning, Odle grab her hand and leans her against the wall. their buddies saw whats happening. Mag was scared, she have never seen Odle being that rough towards her before.
"MAG! i love you! get it? I LOVE YOU!" still grabbing Mag's hand. Mag's face turn red because of fear. Odle grabbed her wrist too hard, but still Odle never notice.. never...
"please Odle let go of my hand.. its painful"
" I wont! is there still love for me in your heart?" mag kept quiet.....
Mag stare down the floor, tears roll down... one drop, two drop, three drop and so on. Noodle still doesnt realize it. He still grabbing Mag's hand.
"please let go of my hand.... its painful....."
Noodle quickly let go of her hand. He just realized his roughness and disappointed with himself. 2 of Mag and Odle buddy, fishball and fishcake ran towards them..
"GUYS! WHATS HAPPENING HERE!? come on!! dont be weirdo, can? get it? haish! Noodle! come on! Maggi is a girl! be more soft to her can?" shouted Fishball.

Noodle glance at Maggi. He felt that he had made the biggest mistake by making Maggi cry. But he can't do anything right now, left with regrets. four of them went back to the void deck. the rest of ther buddies just watch them and kept quiet. All of them.. ALL, knows that Noodle like or can say love Maggi. but they dont want to get involve in their personal problem. let mag and odle solve by themself.

when they reached under the void deck. Maggi was the first one to take her bag and left that place. her feelings- sad, disappointed, hatred, angry and many more towards Noodle. but she's too late, Noodle grab her hand again, but softer this time. Maggi still look at different but not Noodle's handsome face.

"Now Mag, tell me. is there any love for me?"
Maggi still kept quiet. yup, there is love for Noodle. But she still thinks that Odle doesnt really love her. She dont want to hurt her feeling, her own feelings. and so she lied.
"no, there's none! let me go. i want to go home." Mag answer the question without looking at Odle
"look at me, and say, no you dont love me. 3 times. then I let you go..."
Maggi try to pull her hand. sadfully, Noodle grab her hand tighter. with her fullest strength she try to pull her hand again. But who is she? she's just a girl. even if she's strong. Odle will be stronger as a boy. Noodle grab both of Maggi's hand. Maggi gave up. she's tired.
"please... let me go! pleasee.they are looking at us. dont you feel ashame?" begged maggi.
yes, their buddy looking at them. They just dont want to get involved, but Maggi really hope at least 1 of them stop Noodle. she really have no strength left.
"no, i dont feel it. if you really feel shameful then lets go behind there, so no one can see us." "NO! i dont want. i want to go home."
ignoring Maggi's shouting. Noodle pull maggi hand and go at the back of the blok.
"happy? no one can see us now." thats what Noodle said.

Maggi look around her, there was noone. she have no reason to run away from the guy she love that was crazy now. she's sweating although the weather was not hot but breeze-ing.
" come on Odle. please. you are making crazy! just let me go from here. lets just be friend. bestfriend. its better to have friendship than relationship. I dont want if our relationship wont last long, we will be enemy. but if friendship, even after fighting or what so ever. we will still be friend!" mag said while looking at odle face, and continue saying "moreover, i dont like you anymore."
this time looking at some where else..
" dont like me? haaah~ then, look directly in my eye. and say you dont like me, 3 time."

Maggi motionless. She plan to run away from there. Noodle turn his body around. and Maggi try to run away from there as fast as possible. but Odle was so wise today, he saw Mag's movement. Odle grab Mag's shoulder, pull her towards the wall, roughly and bring his face closer to Maggi's. Maggi close her eyes. she was too scared, very very scared. in 19 years of living, this is the first time a guy was that close with her, other than her father. They can hear each other breath. it was too near, too near that they can feel their own breath mixing together in the air. Mag's eye was still close, Noodle was smiling. He dont know why. but he just feel like kissing Maggi's lips. he come nearer to Maggi. Now they can feel each other body temperature, eventhough they are not hugging, even their body doesnt touch each other but it was warm enough to make the cold weather comfortable. Maggi collect all her strength to open her eye...

"pleaseee Noodle.. dont be like this." facing the other side so that noodle facing her cheek.
"I wont move a single inchi, if you dont look at me and say that you dont like me 3 times."

2010-03-21T02:21:00.000-07:00

hey reader! if you always view my blog since last year regularly.. do you remember i wrote story? love story. and i stopped half way. cause busy.. i think i will repost.. and continue the story... should I? i think i should.. okaaaay~

2010-03-15T05:45:00.000-07:00

I just make friend with his one guy dont know from which country named Joshua.

i know him from tagged and add me at my MSN for strangers. haha~

yeah! he's awesome!! the way he play the guitar.. POOOSSSHHH~~~

and i really likes guy who play well in guitar.. gosh! he's really something.bahaha

and he played pink panther and Iron Man-Black Sabbath.. that was my favourite..

anyway have a great webcam with him.. eventhough i dont own 1.. :(

2010-03-05T05:07:00.000-08:00

hello all, gosh.. i was damn tired to even post something at my blog. but i just felt like doing it today..

oh yeah, just now after school. I was walking with all my friend. and suddenly got this 2 boy keep looking at me and one of them keep pointing towards me. and say " oh, this one? this one?" oh gosh, they got any problem with me or what?
it was so obvious that they stared at me and the pointing finger was like totally infront of me.. craziness..

and, shit! afiqah's wallet is with me.. tomorrow she going to come to my house and take it. haaiyyoooo.. so leceh.

just now went to watch floorball match. it was damn fun with the cheering, shouting, banging.. having fun with sakinah, khaniza, hazirah, Naim and Shapek.. woolalaaaa~ so fun! one of the part, hazirah was paisey and she lie down on me? haha.. awesome. very the sekeping. it would be better with zahira and pika

sakinah lent me her dvd santau.. damn it. scary for me. and my mum's became the victim. cause whenever im scared of something. i really need to grab someone's hand.. THANKS MAMA!

ah daaamn, fatin bestie! SARANGHAE.. keep smsing with me ya.. or i will miss you! :D

2010-02-20T23:58:00.000-08:00

I LOVE THIS LADY THE MOST! muuacks..

2010-02-20T23:53:00.000-08:00

I LOVE MY FRIENDS! the 6 idiot friends (including me)
- nazz, nana, zahi, niza, zia, afiq

and my BESTIE- fatin!

and my sisters- beelah, horeah, fatin

2010-01-22T04:23:00.000-08:00

i miss this cutie friend of mine

SARANGHAE

2010-01-22T04:03:00.000-08:00

the most experienced scientist.

anyway, cut all that nonsense. its too cool already. oh yeah, i just won something that have no present but experince. i kissed nazz! YAY! haha.. actually, not me alone. but with khaniza.. serve you right Nazzeera :P wanna know why i damn happy? cause of all 6 of us (niza, nazz, saki, zahi and pika), nazz the one that really hates the word "kissing" *you know what i mean* and yeah we did it.

then the dont know what day, i get to kiss sakinah.. haha her turn :P but her cheek really sponge. actually, the kiss was the accidentally kiss. i was acting to kiss her, my plan was just to make her panic. so she was like move so harshly and BOOM! her stupid cheek reach my lips. ahah!

then zahira's turn, for saying the bad word "musibah hey" *our language* so i chase her till outside class. hold her damn tight. and khaniza kissed her! so yeah.

afiqah and khaniza are the coolest. cause i always kiss them. not like those 3 clown. haha

yeah, we may sound lesbian. but we arent. its called friendship. and all of us have interest in boys.. DUH! hahahaahahahahaa.....

2010-01-16T06:12:00.000-08:00

at 10:12 pm..
i was chatting with this 3 kanasai friend.. peter, kaihue, ashley..
THEY ARE REALLY FULL OF CRAP AND LAMENESS
never knew that Ashley was quite violent with his words. lol! awesome.
he's my "lover" LOL!
this awesomeeeeee..
and suddenly talk about 3 in 1? haha i dont understand that part.

2010-01-16T05:45:00.000-08:00

hey, freako..
SEE LA! why you post that! now that aunty go and follow you.
we going to die sia.. HOW!????
you want to head bang also no use.. SEE LAA YOUUUUUUUUUUU!!!
eh go and do head banging till your head bleed and show me the photo..
hahahaaaaaaaaaa
from now on, lets just keep our mouth shut ya freako..
i promise. you better promise too FI!

hot news :

WE GOING TO DIE

TOGETHER LA FREAKO

2010-01-16T04:43:00.000-08:00

recently i had a nice chatting with this moron "bestfriend" of mine named Peter.. he's full of lamenest.. talk about my crushes since sec 1 till now and talk about his too. it was really awesome to know some of his secret. haha... and then, added another weirdo kind of friend.. Kai Hui.. and another funny kind of friend named justina.. we kept talking during geography time. it was damn HOTTY topic. i love it. mini cooper? HAHA okaaay lame..

lets talk about sec 1 guy.. a guy that i met in the bus.. he have a ugly face.. a DAMN FCUKING UGLY FACE and A VERY DAMN FCUKING ATTITUDE. i really hate that kind of person.. this was what happen..
He keep disturbing his friend for being a cry baby. so he scold all the nonsense something like this "you no dick la, you go and cut" blablabla. i dont wish to continue the dirty words of his.. i wonder what his parents been teaching him? or his parents behave the same way as what i saw.. damn it. who can tolerate that kind of person? NONE! his parents? maybe. his friends? maybe the stupids one.
I just kept quiet and listen whatever he said. but i cant take it with his fcuking face and his freaking annoying immature voice. and i just said "hey, are you a muslim?" he nod. "if you are, can you keep quiet and dont say anyhow?" i said in malay, dont really know how to translate. sorry. and yeah, he still with his fcuking attitude but with a lower volume..
GOSH! damn it, a sec 1 boy behaving like that. and have a same religious as me? isnt that embrassing. no wonder, nowadays many people hate muslim. about riots, war blablabla.. but i know in this world everyone have their own religion and we must respect one another. and i'm as a muslim. im proud to be one but disappointed with minority. the because of the minority, people hate us :( just hope they could see the postive side of us.

2010-01-11T01:22:00.000-08:00

I WANT TO BE A HAIR DRESSER or or or OWN A SALON SHOP..!

2010-01-10T00:13:00.000-08:00

LIFE are so CUTE !! haha...

GOSH! i dont know what to post.. argh! this is freaking me out.
oh lets talk about TP..
haha.. of all things.
oh yeah. went to TP last thursday with my classmates and 4A2..
it was damn damn damn boring.. :(

but things changed when syakirah and I went there on Saturday.
i accompanied her there.. we was very hyper. hmmm i mean she. haha
i was like.. "must i be hyper?" LOL! and
syakirah said that "i just realize when you wear tudung you were not hyper but when you wearing your school Uni you damn hyper."
hmmmmmm~ haha..

so yeah. we kept strolling around the TP. Syakirah kept showing handsome/cute guy around us. and sadfully, i cant really see clearly cause im not wearing my spec. :(
and she was like "aargh! you should see them. they so cute/handsome."
i kept laughing seeing her eager-ness.. haha,
so yeah, we went to the toilet. i take out my spec from them bag. and i saw "everything".. HAHA

we met this tour guy. his name is Alvin.
how we meet? thanks to syakirah. she asked for a balloon from this 1 guy and alvin was beside that guy. so, alvin kept talking to her about TP i guess..
and so ya, he became our tour guide. haha! he's from chai chee and we talk about chai chee merging with bedok town for a few minutes..

and this 1 hyper girl. her name is hidayah.. DAMN DAMN DAMN hyper.. hahaha.. serious.
found her facebook and added her in MSN.. heheheheeeee~ yeah :)

YEAH! I DID IT! at last i get to post SOMETHING.. better than nothing. haha.. bye all take care.. loveya

2009-12-23T02:42:00.000-08:00

ESTHER!!

i dont know what to update la...

eh! fulfill my wish!

2009-12-03T21:22:00.000-08:00

hello peeps.. muahaha..
oh yeah...
its been a "quite" long time since i've updated my blog... *is my english that sucks? haha*
sooo whatever la. hmmm. as you can see im really into korean band, ss501 and U-kiss..
okay ziana shut up. stop talking about them.. so disappointing in myself.

oh yeah. today as per normal wake up.. bath, tidy up my room, sweep my whole house floor, help mum in the kitchen. AND off to computer. hmm... nowadays, i always sms with BEGUM! yeah! both of us are married. her husband name is Mr togo and mine Mr hyung(kim hyung joon).. haha
i have 4 sons. while she having (in her stomach)
yeeeaaah!

oh yeah! one more thing. i wonder why my shoulder havent recovered... since july till now.. around 5-6 month? gosh! damn.. always cry in pain.. irritating shoulder. but i still love my shoulder laaaa.. and nooow.. my wrist is hurting. i was holding my spoon to scoop soup and it drop by itself.. coz i cant really move my hand and finger... GOSH! what happen with my shoulder, elbow, wrist, hand, finger.. ARGGH! and all of it happen at my right hand.. my precious hand!

ohh hand please dont make trouble for meee.. darliing hand.. haha... okaaay bye..

2009-11-23T04:36:00.000-08:00

U-kiss

members:

Alexander (알렉산더)
Birth date: July 29, 1988 (1988-07-29) (age 21)

Soo Hyun (수현)
Birth date: March 11, 1989 (1989-03-11) (age 20)

Ki Bum (기범)
Birth date: December 29, 1990 (1990-12-29) (age 18)

Lee Ki Sub (기섭)
Birth date: January 17, 1991 (1991-01-17) (age 18)

Eli (일라이)
Birth date: March 13, 1991 (1991-03-13) (age 18)

Kevin (케빈)
Birth date: November 25, 1991 (1991-11-25) (age 17)

Dong Ho (동호)
Birth date: June 29, 1994 (1994-06-29) (age 15)

SS5O1

members:

kim hyun joong(김현중)

June 6, 1986 (1986-06-06) (age 23)

heo young saeng(허영생)
November 3, 1986 (1986-11-03) (age 23)

kim kyu jong(김규종)

February 24, 1987 (1987-02-24) (age 22)

park jung min(박정민)
April 3, 1987 (1987-04-03) (age 22)

kim hyung joon!!!! (김형준)

August 3, 1987 (1987-08-03) (age 22)

2009-11-16T21:30:00.000-08:00

for my friend QUEENIE.. here it goes DBSK..

MY PRETTY ESTHER! today is 17 november.

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY TO YOU yaaa..

may your bloody wish comes true.. haha and stay alive! and be crazy!

2009-11-13T23:49:00.000-08:00

shinee

super junior

MY FAVOURITE!
ss501

2009-11-13T05:05:00.001-08:00

wow!
its been awhile i update this blog eh?
yeeaaa~ i just dont know what to post here..
want to share my sadness with you NOW..

I LOST MY CAMERA.. :( seriously, its really sucks..
it just that my family is not THAT rich and i just lost a expensive things?
what wrong with me, man?
its really really sucks. and i cant save money now cause now is school hols
no pocket money.. GOSH!!
my whole family disappointed with me..

so anyone can buy for me camera?? or share money with me? hahaaa..
as if you guys damn rich like president.. LOL.. okaaay
byebyeeeeeee

2009-10-26T00:19:00.000-07:00

to my BUBBLE GUM(sakinah) sayang!

oh aku maha sot...
you seriously make me feel want to chew you now...
bubble gum with durian flavour... woolala~~~

2009-10-25T22:09:00.000-07:00

OVER JOY LA...

dont be sad.. haha

haha! liverpool won!

great new... ya VERY VERY GREAT NEWS

LIVERPOOL WON THE MAAAAAAAAAAAATCH!!!

SEE?? LIIIIVEEEEEERPOOOOOOOOOL!!!!! WOOHOOOOOOOO~~!
to all Man U fans.. SEE!!! dont be action.. hahaha! joking! dont be sad :(

aiya.. to all my cousin that love man U esp my own brother..

SEE! LIVERPOOL PROVE YOU GUYS WRONG! they can do it dah! HAHA

sorry ya.. *winkwink*

2009-10-12T21:25:00.000-07:00

2009-10-12T21:12:00.000-07:00

cousin hari raya day out! haha

2009-10-12T20:52:00.000-07:00

the mixed day out.. haha

OK LA.. not bad, it would be more fun everyone get to follow..

2009-10-12T20:37:00.000-07:00

GIRLS HARI RAYA OUTING!

its was EXPLENDID! AWESOME.. yeeaaap~ i love them!!!

2009-09-15T06:07:00.000-07:00

continue-ing

Hotdog and Nugget went to get Maggi that look really scared. Maggi still... standing like a statue there. her mind was blank, totally blank. She dont know, why the hell was her life being like this? did she make a wrong mistake by liking him? maybe, but she cant help it. the feelings come by itself. no one can neither stop nor start it.
Noodle look at Maggi. With frustration-expression but disappointed in the heart. Why cant Maggi just gave him a chance. just one more chance, not more he would be the happiest guy but sadfully, Maggi dont want to. Maggi was going to open her mouth and say that she will give Noodle 1 more chance to show how much she loves her. but when she just open her mouth.....

"ok, if that what you want Maggi, I will take you as my bestfriend then." said Noodle, " but remember, 1 day dont ever say you regret."

Maggi felt like there was a big stone hitting her in the heart, she stare at Noodle. She dont know how she felt now, happy? sad? nothing? she just dont know what to say.
Noodle went away from there.

"mag, are you ok?" asked fishcake and fishball..

maggi nodded...

" are you happy?" asked nugget.

"haha, of course im ok with it. i take him as a bestfriend only. get it? not more" lied Maggi

"hope you not lying. ok lets go home." Hotdog hold Maggi's shoulder as if she can give her strength by that.

so the 5 of them went back to the block together. reached there Noodle was on the way to go home. he looks again at Maggi. his heart really ache, its really hurt. Maggi never even once glance at him. he was waiting for her eye to at least look at him even a second. but it was wasting time. he went off from there.
when he turn his back, Maggi turn her head. She look at Noodle with sad-expression. she wont tell anyone that she still like Noodle. that was a promise. She will only tell if its really needed.

BOTH of them, felt sad. BOTH of their heart hurt but dont want to tell anyone about it. BOTH of the feel like crying but they care more about their ego. and so it be.

TO BE CONTINUED

2009-09-14T05:51:00.000-07:00

continue-ing

"happy? no one can see us now." thats what Noodle said.

Maggi look around her, no one was there. she have no reason to run away from the guy she love that have become crazy now. she's sweating although the weather was not hot but breeze-ing.

" come on Odle. please. you are making crazy! just let me go from here. lets just be friend. bestfriend. its better to have friendship than relationship. I dont want if our relationship not long we will be enemy. but if friendship, even after fighting or what so ever. we will still be friend!"
mag said while looking at odle face, and continue saying
"moreover, i dont like you anymore." this time looking at some where else..

" dont like me? then, look direct in my eye. and say you dont like me, 3 time."

Maggi motionless. She plan to run away from there. Noodle turn his body around. and Maggi try to run away from there as fast as possible. but dont know how come Odle so wise today, he saw Mag's movement. mag just run about 4 step, Odle grab Mag's shoulder, pull her towards the wall, roughly and nearer his face to Maggi's face. Maggi close her eyes. she was to scared, in her life, living for 19 years in the world. this was the first time a guy was that close with her, other than her father.
They can hear each other breath. it was too near, too near that they can feel their own breath mixing together in the air. Mag's eye was still close, Noodle was smiling. He dont know why. but he just feel like kissing Maggi's lips. he come nearer to Maggi. Now they can feel each other temperature, even they are not hugging, even their body doesnt touch each other but it was warm enough to make the cold weather comfortable.
Maggi collect all her strength to open her eye...

"pleaseee Noodle.. dont be like this." facing the other side so that noodle can only see her cheek.

"I wont move a single inchi, if you dont look at me and say that you dont like me 3 times."

Maggi feel like going to her closefriend, nugget and hotdog and hug them. tell how stress and scared she is in this condition. but she cant. Noodle was too close with her. if she just make 1 cm. move, just one cm... something like kissing will happen. and she dont want that to happen.
Again, for the second time, she cry because of scared.. scared of her own bestfriend did something bad to her. her bestfriend, Noodle. that always make her happy when she was crying. that cheer her up, that comfort her well enough.
But now, she cry because of him. she feel like as if she was the cry baby. but she cant take it! her tears is the same as her fear.
Noodle saw a drop of water come out from her eye.. her beautiful eye. the eyes that make him want to look at it everyday. the eye that make him hyper. the eye that make him feel like missing someone everyday.
He let go off maggi. "sorry" the only word he can say...

maggi open her eye.. " come on noodle.. i dont think you love me. i know you love macaroni very much. the girl you wait for 1 month. but was rejected 5 days ago. i know you sad about it. you stress about it but you can share with me, your problem. i will be by your side, as a friend. bestfriend.."

Noodle cant take it. he scream as loud as possible. Maggi was shocked. half of their member came-fishball, fishcake, hotdog, nugget...

"whats happening??" asked 4 of them in one shot..

TO BE CONTINUED

by ZIANA!

2009-09-13T05:12:00.000-07:00

continue-ing from the previous post.....

Mag stare down the floor, tears roll down... one drop after another.
Noodle still doesnt realize it. He still grabbing Mag's hand.

"please let go of my hand.... its painful....."

Noodle quickly let go of her hand. He just realized his roughness and disappointed with himself. 2 of Mag and Odle members fishball and fishcake ran towards them..

"GUYS! WHATS HAPPENING HERE!? come on!! dont be weirdo, can? get it? haish! Noodle! come on! Maggi is a girl! be more soft to her can?" shouted Fishball.

Noodle glance at Maggi. He felt that he had made the biggest mistake by making Maggi cry. But he can't do anything right now, left with regrets....
four of them went back at the void deck. Other of the members just watch them and kept quiet. All of them.. ALL, knows that Noodle like or can say love Maggi. but they dont want to get involve in their personal problem. let mag and odle solve by themself.

when four of them reached the void deck. Maggi was the first one to take her bag and going to leave the place. her feelings- sad, disappointed, hatred, angry and many more towards Noodle. but she was too late, Noodle grab her hand again, but softer this time.
Maggi still looking somewhere else not Noodle's handsome face.

"Now Mag, tell me. is there any love for me?"

Maggi still kept quiet. yup, there is love for Noodle. But she still thinks that Odle doesnt really love her. She dont want to hurt her feeling, her own feelings. and so she lied.

"no, let me go. i want to go home." Mag answer the question without looking at Odle

"look at me, and say, no you dont love me. 3 times. then I let you go..."

Maggi try to pull her hand. sadfully, Noodle grab her hand tighter.
with her fullest strength she try to pull her hand again. But who is she? she's just a girl. even if she's strong. Odle will be stronger as a boy. Noodle grab both of Maggi's hand. Maggi gave up. she's tired.

"please... let me go! pleasee. our members are looking at us. dont you feel ashame?" begged maggi.

"no, if you feel shameful. lets go behind there so no one can see us."

"NO! i dont want. i want to go home."

without any care with Maggi's shouting. Noodle pull maggi hand and go at the back of the blok.

TO BE CONTINUED.....

COPYRIGHTED! ziana!!

2009-09-12T05:04:00.000-07:00

2009-09-06T02:29:00.000-07:00

whoooooop~

yesterday chatted with syed abdullah aka zack..
wow! it was awesome la..
Dina join us too.. he talk with syed on the phone..
and syed send the message to me using microphone..
and so i heard his voice la..
blablabla.. i need to shut down the computer,
so, I continue sms-ing with him then..
not him alone with dina too.. awesome..
but then, dina need to sleep..
so i sleep too..
SYED! if you love my friend a lot.. dont give up easily!

2009-09-06T01:49:00.000-07:00

waaah! MIKE HE so cute! ok since sec 1 i admire him.. LOL..

lets start blogging..
on friday my cousins, 2 family came to break fast at my house..
so blablabla.. I talk with my mom about dieting.. haha
then after terawih all...
as per normal.. me, syakirah, fadhli lepak at my brother's room..
then fadhli start asking..
"ziana, do you want to be slim?? you can, you know.. do sit up everyday and jog for about 30 min"
" of coz i want to be slim.. okok set later i slim down"
"yeah! if you slim, you will be slimmer than syakirah."
" haha.. eh why you want me to be slim? you want to stead with me ah? haha"
*smile*"lame.. be slim and.. and..."
"and nice skin ah? im black so i want to be lighter ah"
"why? no need la.. pretty already.. and dark skin is ok what.. let it be, nice"
"haha. waaaah~ so if im slim and pretty.. you want to stead with me? we cannot, you know!.. we are cousin.. :("
both of us laugh.. and he continue smiling.. haha
aaawww so sweet of my cousin, fadhli.. LOL

2009-09-03T02:28:00.000-07:00

My family used to pity him..
we try to love him back..
BUT what we get in return?
all your fucker behavior?
ASSHOLE! fucker! sial!
get it? ya.. i wont say badword over a small thing..
and this is big
no need to know the problem, let only my close friend knows..
get it? ok..
nevermind.. HE IS SUCH A FUCKER musibat..
CANT HE JUST MAKE MY FAMILY PEACE FOR THE WHOLE YEAR?
CANT HE JUST FUCK OFF FROM OUR LIFE?
STUPID FUCKER!!!

2009-09-01T05:12:00.000-07:00

aloha...
on monday we celebrated teacher's day
aawww! its was awesome!
i seat in between nazzeera my lovely kakak and sakinah my blacklist member..
ok nazz was "sot" with me.. macam paham..
sakinah layan me so she too is crazy..
then khaniza join our nonsense.. haha
me and khaniza can be a good partner.. our voice are awesome!
dont know why afiqah keep quiet :(
ok then as usual, we go 532...
talk nonsense with khaniza, afiqah, nazzeera..
sakinah cant join us as she with her dance member..
yeap, her dance member ask me and nazz to join.
but we not comfortable with them..
we are waaaay much comfortable with our own member..
ok after talking crap... niza and pika go to their "husband" haha...
left me and nazz alone.. sad sia like real.. lol...
so we watch Fadhzil, Guna, Ishak play with this towel..
hitting each other with the towel
ok first i look at it.. doesnt look pain
Guna hit the towel to me still not pain..
coz i hit at my leg and im wearing thick track pants
sekali fadhzil hit me at my back.. AAAWWW!
luckily i wear double shirt..
oi im a girl.. ass..
get it? it was awesome hang out with them...
ok blablabla...
me and nazz went home.. it was awesome went home with nazz!
at the mrt sakinah rang me..
so she talk to me then pass the phone to nazz...
and blabla..
homecutehome!

2009-08-29T02:00:00.000-07:00

whoop~
yesterday i was sick..
at first it was okay.. like normal..
then during physic class was the worst one!
my voice start to become softer, cant breath properly because of nose block, headache, eye watery...
and contact time too... damn hell...
so bell ring and everyone can go off..
so went off with sakinah, khaniza, afiqah...
but i never say bye to them.. alamak! SORRY!!!
they need to go ICA and make IC..
and then i meet denice..
we must take care of N.E. corner..
our job is to search of people and play all the games there every friday..
but instead of calling people.. we are the one who play alone..
monopoly!! sorry denice :P you lose!!!
i win the money more than you!! :P

2009-08-22T21:08:00.000-07:00

2009-08-21T04:42:00.000-07:00

Today was quite awesome...
ok after school went to the void deck again..
went there with sakinah and nazzeera.. meet afiqah, khaniza and the guys there..
blablabla..
me, sakinah, nazz, joel.. play tarzan the monkey bear, macaroni and 21..
its awesome! joel funny sia.. nazz well done.. we make a nice move..
then me and nazz send sakinah home..
went mac donald.. and went back below the void deck..

then!! i learn to punch.. the right way..
guna and the other chai chee guy was like..
"haha! girl want to learn fight! funny sia"
first joel teach me.. i try to punch but he keep saying "NO!", "WRONG!"
he teach me the right way but i still dont understand..
then azizi came he teach me..
and yeap! i get it! first i try to punch azizi..
he say ok.. now punch joel
so i did.. and joel said it was pain..
so i want to try again.. he say dont want
its very pain.. yay!!
then azizi ask to try to do it to guna..
then the chai chee guys was like.. busybody..
they were standing to see i punch him.. what the hell
girl cannot fight is it?! huh!!
yup i try,, but im aimless.. guna so skinny... how sia?
and he say not pain.. of coz la! cannot target what!

2009-08-16T02:07:00.000-07:00

yeah~ nowadays i feel awkward but nevermind..

like what Azizi advice me.. we know how to find a crying and laughing friends
which means even if we are in trouble in sad position easy to say
difficult situation.. they are still with us.. not only happy moment but also difficulties moment..
and that i want to say thanks gayatri..
and sorry if last time i forget about you..
im not too close with you like i do when im sec 1 and sec 2..
maybe that time i have childish brain...
but now.. i know.. you always close to me..
even if im with someone else.. you always think of me and dont want to lose me..
thanks friend!
you never fail to make me laugh, never fail to stop me worrying about ya..

to SAKINAH, NAZZEERA, AFIQAH, KHANIZA
AZIZI, HARI, FADHZIL, ZUFADHLI, JOEL
and my sister that understand my situation
FATIN, NABEELAH, HOREAH

hope you guys be my sad and happy friend..
amin

2009-08-12T04:21:00.000-07:00

my mom and dad used to say..
"dont be too close with your friends"
i asked why... and i didnt believe in what they say..
but now its different, i believe them..
but why must all these happen! i seriously dont want it to happen..
and who's want it? EVERYONE DONT WANT IT!
see! even i write this.. i feel like crying now.. Ya Allah!

I know, you going to say im cry baby? weak? or what so ever..
but im human too! me too got feelings!
who's not sad when our great friend feel like stranger to us..
of course im sad
i dont want this kind of stuff to happen
but what to do.. its a fate that Allah or god want it to be like this..
maybe there something behind all this had happen
who knows? but i hope it will be positive ending...

2009-08-11T04:08:00.000-07:00

today was my suckish day of all.. haiz..
got some issues going on..

my sayang NAJMU,! relax ok? control your temper.. just dont think to much... i have forgive you.. its my fault by the way.. i talk to you at the wrong time.. should let you cool down first eh?

my dear HARI,! waaaah! you ah! you want to slap a girl? i kick your round ass then you know.. haha.. ni ways get well soon.. dont play too much.. and you too.. control your temper la! buy for me drinks at the same shop next time!!

my weirdo AFIQAAH!!, haha.. thanks to cool me down and chill me up babe.. *pssst*.. *smile*

my cutestuff KHANIZAA!, you're awesome.. you too cool just now.. haha! thanks for chilling me up..!

my asistant SAKINAH,! woooow~ i dont know what to say about you leh.. haha.. and IM JEALOUS of you.. :P

my irritating friend AZIZI!, you try not to be too KEPO next time ok? thanks coz chill me up when i was crying...

my coolest friend JOEL!, whooop~ thanks to be neutral.. and you too.. you are way too cool.. love the way you control your temper.. *salute*

my judge NAZZ and watercooler AISHA!, WOW! just now at bedok CC was awesome! ass you.. make me scared like hell..

my daughter FATIN!, aiyo you!! you are free from friendship problem.. wa caya sama lu la anak! sorry tak ajak gi bedok CC tadi sis.. aiya.. next time next time!

my tante HOREAH!, sorry sis if i never chat with you that much recently :(..

my BESTfriend GAYATRI!, you the most chill up person i ever known! just now, when im get angry.. you cool me down.. and ask me to go away from there because you dont want me to lose my temper.. at that time only you understand my feeling.. only you could chill me up the most.. only you! i can hug when im crying.. thanks for the hug.. and i will never forget that hug.. i love you :D

DONE WITH EVERYONE COMMENT DAH!

2009-08-10T00:41:00.000-07:00

hey! i just knew that veron's birhtday is 9 of august..
and its national day..

so HAPPIE BIRTHDAY SINGAPURA :D

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY MY VERON!

sakinah, kau diam.. haha

___________________________________________

out of sudden.. yesterday while watching 300..

i come out with this words..

" how to protect my bestfriend?

how will life goes on without a bestfriend?

why must I need a bestfriend?

why I feel lonely without a bestfriend?

when I start being your bestfriend?

when will me stop being a bestfriend? :(

which position am I as a bestfriend?

WHICH PART OF MY ATTITUDE I NEED TO CHANGE TO BE YOUR BEST BESTFRIEND?"

this is what i say to gayatri on the phone just now :D

2009-08-10T00:10:00.000-07:00

1) Are you single or attached ?
single or double? single la

2) Do you have a person you like ?
yeah! got 2.. but i love 1 the most. both not same race as me :C

3)What is the name of your person you in love with ?
MUST I WRITE?

4)If the person you in love and your mother dropped into the sea ,who will you save?
who give us first breath on earth? MY MAMA LA!

5)Have you hug someone before ?
parent? brother? friends? but no guys..

6)Do you love your parents ?
DUH!!! without them i dont know what is life..

7)Will you hug the want you love ?
parents? friends? but if a guy, after i get married..

8)Are you willinq to do anythinq for your boyf/girlf ?
see what first.. if negative.. fuck you.. hahaa

9)Are you jealous now ?
FOR WHAT!?

10)Who is the last person who msq you ?
subha :D

11)Who is your clique ?
i dont know leh? what is clique at the first place?

12)Do you want babies in future ?
YEAH! produce more generation!

13)Do you prefer MacDonald , long john silver or KFC ?
KFC!!

14)Do you sniff glue ?
NOPE!

15)Do you smoke ?
want me to get asthma!?

16)If your boyf /girlf play 2 timer behind you , what will you do ?
fuck you.. walk off.. haha..

17)If you rich , what will you do ?
help my parents.. do some positive stuff.. save lots of it for future

18)If the love wants held your hand , what will you do ?
grab his hand.. till he scream.. haha

19)If the want you in love , reject you , what will you do ?
cant see his face anymore! full of shame! haha

20)What is your favourite character ?
cartoon character? pucca.. haha!!

21)Friendship or love ?
friendship will last forever... love, we are not too sure..so friendship!

22)Cookie monster or elmo ?
cookie monster.. so i can eat the cookie!

23)Do you use laptop or computer ?
computer...

24)Do you like lollipop ?
yeah! when i feel lonely, hyper and weirdo

25)Do you have a diary ?
yeah! tell my secret only me and my book..

26)there an admirer and wont die heart , what will you do ?
means? i dont understand?.. i die heart too? HAHA!

27)If you quarrel wit your boyf / girlf ,and ask for a break up , what will you do ?
ok lets break up.. sad for few days.. and happy back.. more boys outside

28)Are you blur ?
most of the time :C

29)If you can have your hair dye , what colour do you want it to be ?
die die... i dont want...

30)Who is the last person you chatted with ?
sakinah and syed..

31)How many boyf / girlf have you beaten before ?
i dont even have a boyfren :D

32)If you boyf / girlf do not love you anymore , what will you do ?
i try not to love him anymore

33)What school are you in ?
BTSS

34)Tag 10 bestie or friends to do this quiz?
1. Esther
2.Fatin
3.najmu
4.Sakinah
5.nabeelah
6.Aisha
7.Syakirah (iparku)!
8.sulastri
9.kun qin
10.suhaibah

2009-08-09T02:07:00.000-07:00

whenever i feel like crying
you always be there to chill me up...

whenever Im angry
you always be there to cool me down...

whenever im lonely
you always be there to cheer me up...

whenever im in the wrong path
you always be there to correct me...

about my dear gayatri ahai...

my own feeling toward someone

i thought you were closer with me than her
but im wrong..

why do I think like that?
coz you USED to be closer with me

why you never tell you usual problem to me anymore?
coz you got her to tell those stuff and forget me..

why you ignore me when you with her?
????????

why you accuse me not to talk to both of you?
coz you never make the way to talk to me..
and you make me like a LAMP POST!

did i do anything wrong?
maybe yes.. coz im close to the person you dont really like

why you just dont want to straightforward to me?
coz you dont want? and think its not important right??

i wont say that you forgot me.. coz every human can choose which friend they want
maybe im just to sensitive... i too got ego... adios!

2009-08-08T05:18:00.000-07:00

GAYATRI! you're the best..

I wonder why, whenever i feel lonely, when i feel sad
you always rang me at the correct time!
you really rocks my day and even life...
you always understand how i felt...
even if i never talk to you..
you will make the way to make me talk to again..
you are really me bestfriend since sec 1 i know you
from the first day of schooling till NOW!
and till now.. i love you.. and my love for you are growing bigger ad bigger...
soo i really appreciate it! how i wish you have blog and could read this...
so you know how much i love you...
sooo... for the last time i say aik...

MY LOVE FOR YOU IS GROWING HIGHER AND WIDER EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!

with full of love;
ZIANA <3>

2009-08-07T04:21:00.000-07:00

TO: NAJMU

najmu! MY DEAREST NAJMU NISHA!
chill ok darling? try to FORGET ONE HUNDRED PERCENT about him...
HE ARE JUST BEING CHILDISH BY SAYING BAD WORD TO YOU..
he say fuck you to you??? just say FUCK YOU BACK...
even if they are my close friend to me..
sadfully, you are just lucky cause you are closer friend to me dear!
they are such an ASS... NO BRAIN! thats what i can say!
but im sorry.. coz i cant say fuck or scold to them..
cos i dont want my friendship with them to break apart too..
but i still love you more than i love them...
i think they thought you the type like to fight..
coz you USED to be minah...
but now you the type that hate to fight!
but i tell you this a najmu!..
once people started it ... just fight back.. GIVE NO FACE!
and thats what you told me...

TO: SOMEONE

i still remember those day.. the "straightforward confession day"
one of him.. *wont write the name*
call you sundal... seriously i feel like punching HIS BLOODY FACE..
seriously.. before that, i fight with him during the sms
and that day i was just friends with him back
AND ON THAT DAY HE CALL YOU SUNDAL!?
nisha! i know how you feel...
coz when he said THAT WORD, its really have the impact on me...
he's my friend..
but i will try my best not to be close with him anymore..
wish me luck...

TO: MY SISTERZ!

alamak!
now im close with sakinah, nazz, khaniza, pika...
i love that.. but i dont know, how come i feel that..
i betrayed my horeah, fatin, nabeelah..
SUCKS! they never say that to me.. but i know that quite sad..
SORRY SIS! i will try my best to divide my time with you all!
whooooop~!!

2009-08-07T04:10:00.000-07:00

wooooooo!
having fun today!
went to najmu house at first to change my shirt..
red shirt, black jeans, beach tudung...
then went sakinah house.. woohoo! make like y own house..
sooooooooo
meet NAJMU, SAKINAH, JOVITA, GAYATRI, NIRO
gayatri belanja us KFC at downtown, i just add $2... *wink*
oh yeah! so in the KFC.. we make soo much noise by laughing.. ass sia..
its really awesome.. ohyeah! sakinah wear for me eyeliner nicely
but when it comes to her.. like shit.. HAHA!!!
so went eHub bought gayatri a birthday present..
she likes it.. coz she choose it..i just pay it.. get it?
so blablabla.. nothing to do.. gayatri and nira went home
me, jo, najmu, sakinah went to nazzeera's house..
make like my own house there..
blablabla talk a lot, laugh a lot
so went home.. done!
aiya.. fatin, horeah, zahira, beelah not with us leh..

2009-07-29T04:28:00.000-07:00

NISHA!!
cheer up, ok??!
ohya.. for your bloghopper
whoever is puneh..
HELLO!! F*CK OFF FROM HER BLOG la sey...
NO LIFE, HOPELESS, ASSHOLE
seriously! dont make her feel worst can?
you got NO FEELING or what?
or prefer to asked ARE YOU HUMAN THAT HAVE NO FEELING?!
if you are.. i sad to hear..
if you dont.. why dont you give her a couraging sentence rather than opposite?..
NOT TO SAID ALL THE BADWORDS TO HER!
imagine you are in her shoe..
confirm you cry right!? or WORST!?
ASS!